justrun-.

maybe forgiveness is right where you fell

the inner surface of my plastic digital watch face is dotted with little drops of water. initially it wasn't that bad, but the drops of water seem to have spread all over the face like an infectious terminal disease. so much so that i can't exactly see the time or the date on my watch anymore... but i refuse to take it off. this watch, like many other things, holds so many memories.

suddenly my life has been split into "life before you-know-what" and "life after you-know-what". 2 lives so different, most would probably think they didn't belong to the same person. or at least, i do.

there's this giant lake of acid standing between the me before, and the me after. i can't seem to go back to who i was, but yet i can't find myself after. it's almost as if the acid has eaten away everything- not just my flesh, but my soul. and as much as i want to be on either side of the lake, i'm still stuck IN it- drowning.

everything i used to know, everything i used to be, i am now not.

this sunday, the 29th- i had been dreaming of it for more than a year. you put in your everything, just so you can live that moment, live the dream...only to find that mere metres before the finish line, you're suddenly on the ground bleeding and screaming and you really don't know what's hit you. now the dream is gone. every positive thought burned up by ten demoralizing ones.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [19:19]

and took [20070727] strides

it's the passion that drives you